:50

My dreams lately have been uncomfortable love situations. Terrible emotions that wake me feeling like suicide, questioning that which is the answer. Bringing up past ghosts replaced by new souls of my own illusions wrapped in my darkest insecurities of loss, like dead summer

roses with the love note still attached and faded.

people that care rip out my heart

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Tuesday, 9th of September, 2003

21:59

A few small drops of time in a bucket of peace and joy is all that separates us from what we will have.

rip out my heart

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Monday, 8th of September, 2003

20:14

I’m so afraid of hiding anything. My goal is to be as real as water. So beautiful & potent & warm, blood like the deep dark red wine of deceased god and goddess lovers. I cant sleep feeling off nowwadays, you know I have to say everything on my chest before i sleep? You should too. Because you travel distance in your sleep. And I dont want to fall away.

It’s scary and it is sad. Time.

rip out my heart

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Sunday, 7th of September, 2003

18:11

I want to shine, to be bright and electric. There are stars in your eyes, and I can’t believe something so blindingly bright can even exist. There are sparks flying off of you, and I want to swallow them. I want to know what it is like to breathe fire, to sweat lava. I want to know what it is like to have a heart of flames, lighting you up from the inside.

Current Music: “cello song” by nick drake